I learn so my life isbetter, +I can share.But I do not DO IT

I want to murder ..

1. MEAN People heading to cruel. Bullies willing to harm. But I should CALM DOWN and be nicer because they are UNANLE to "THINK/FEEL". Our brain creates our MIND and HEART and therefore our soul. Theirs is now destroyed so maybe we can bring them to OUR SIDE? Half my family, friends! 🙈
2. CERTAINLY I WOULD MURDER .. No question .. EVIL beings willing to create whole industries of our suffering. Medical and Law and Order, even "democracy" gone DUMOCRACY on their sugar addiction SCHEME! YUP those I would happily MURDER for sure! But how do you FIND THEM? I think Luigi did not get high up enough. Those CEO's are just "THINK/FEEL" BRAIN DEAD. Disabled in a tunnel OBSESSED only with profit and POWER, they are trained to TWIST our CARING into LOSER! There are only a very FEW pure EVIL in charge of us, WE the PEOPLE! The rest are just McKinsey TRAINED, sheep SHEPHERDS for the POWER Families OWN BENEFIT. Our country MANAGEMENT has not been for WE the PEOPLE since industrialization especially Electricity?
3. Screaming loudness and even coulis and excess are MURDER PUNISHMENT to Extra sensitive people.(ESP) I have to keep telling myself "calm down!" because when you are "sensitive" toward CRAZY EXTREME status you want to murder NOISE or shallow selfishness. The AUDACITY of not caring about the REST of US! HAH .. you are so LUCKY to not be bothered by noise .. if you were a GOOD DECENT Human you would say how lucky I am .. I must be FAIR to these poor people in DISCOMFORT! I was going to say most are quiet and I JUDGE the WHOLEC GROUP. 

So I CAN murder NOISY people! Beware if I FIND YOU. If they are NORMAL decent FAIR HUMANS like if we help a bling person or in a wheelchair we feel more grateful for the ability we ourselves are lucky to have. Now what is it left brains say "that's horrible! so you feel better than them?" I am going to murder my FAMILY! For my 80 years they have TWISTED every freakin THING I say BACK on me!! Left brains devoid of think/feel brain BULLY US take us down CONSTANTLY by TWISTING everything we say. or they just teach us what they know and stupid Thinker dreamer alsways want to learn! z 

How are we watching say the reflecting pool blamed on vandals and not asking Trump to stand down? While he goes backward and wants to prove Biden should hav. If he put as much energy into learning as finding BLAME we would be ok. 

It is even MORE important to balance our OWN LIFE. Then we can go out and create BALANCE thru MODERATION in Society! Like the mask thing we even took TWISTED. There are ?8 Life Ledgers in our PERSONAL Accounting. it involves the human family but is more focused on you. Some spend it all on ME .. a girl twisting and turning in my line taking the best selfie. 🤔 ..🤪 .. unbelievable .. shallow to the Nth degree and no doubt selfish too. WE must BALANCE our task ledgers and leave some time for ME .. calm FUN after maintaining all the other ORDER Ledgers. 

But our life is not just ME Accounting it is WE/US Human ACCOUNTING. I have become more and more obsessed, ADDICTED? with how we could live better lives that my own person life gets ZERO .. seriously no shower, no clean clothes, no sink cleaned .. never mind boxes unpacked. I MOVED 8 months ago TOMORROW!! I had physio last week thanks to terrible pain not allowing walking. The lovely girl admonished me .. "get those boxes unpacked!" That is probably why I get so despairing looking at what a loser I am! BALANCE your life .. DO your life/home tasks TO FEEL IN CONTROL! HAH! I remember one time when I cleaned up, I wrote what a sense of IN CONTROL it gave. HAH! Please listen to what I say. I don't so somebody may as well BENEFIT from my wisdom (Learning!) 🙈

Mon. June 22, 2026, 2:30 pm.

caramel croisant .. too messy .. too runny 

weird pastry .. Vietnamese .. learn to ty different with open MIND! Yes RIDULOUS CHOICE far too extreme but BALNCE also mean we are stuck in this mess .. may as well enjoy! As long as we DOO the work yo make change. I wasted my ENTIRE life screaming "Everything is STUPID! decaying us because EXTREME!". The worry and its stress was my LIFE! No wonder my daughter hates me! Why did I not BALNCE the worry with just the ADVENTURE of new .. and ALSO ENJOY FREEDOM for myself!! Others worry NOTHING about the world sheep gone ZOMNIE .. oblivious. Why did I do all the worry and have no life for me? That is why iwantvto murder everybody Left Action brain! They waste no time thinking and feeling FORVOTHERS! I am JEALOUS! Is that why we murder?

g

e

e